So much of my day job in the ever delightful land of banking requires me to be critical –of myself, of my work, of my peers, of my team, of my leadership, of the organization. I am constantly questioning and pushing back on nearly everything. When I'm not pushing back, then I'm defending my work or my team's work. The demands are high and the pace is higher. At the end of every day, I’m emotionally and mentally exhausted. Now to be asked to read critically and against the text seems like I will need to have that same dynamic with my classwork. To be transparent, that makes me a little sad.
I don’t need the class readings to be filled with bunnies and kittens, or read like fairy tales, because that’s not realistic. But I do like to come to the inviting land of learning and find something positive. I don’t want to argue with the text. I don’t want to argue with my classmates. I want to learn about new ideas and expand my mental horizons. I want to hear differing opinions with an open mind. I want to experience all of the joys of learning without suffering pain and anguish. Or at the very least, I don’t want my blood pressure to go up when I open the week's reading assignments.
I don’t believe it has to be one extreme or the other, so an occasional jump in my heart rate is fine. A disagreement in the class discussion over a topic is to be expected. I realize that I am just one of many in the class. I’m simply hoping we can find a healthy balance.