In the interest of transparency, I feel like I need to share a little. I know you probably all think I’m overly emotional and get too caught up in our weekly reading assignments. I actually think I do too. I haven't always been like this. I believe there are two causes. The first is something that I call the “Green Mile” effect. If you’ve read the book or watched the movie, you know what I’m talking about, for the others: http://www.amazon.com/The-Green-Mile-Stephen-King/dp/0671041789 I literally feel what the other person is feeling. So when I read Push, I feel everything Precious describes. When we talk about graffiti artists, I feel like a street dweller with no voice but my art. When we talk about children creating murals with their parents, I want to start an art therapy group.
Narratives create a highly empathetic response in me. I’ve always been like this, but it is decidedly more pronounced this year. I think the reason for that is because my mom died from cancer last year. Last year the only thing I felt was angry. Different levels of angry for months. Now that the anger has faded, I think that I am overly sensitive to the full spectrum of human emotions. I expect that things will level out for me soon. I'm not allowed to express feelings at work, so I think they double in intensity in our classroom discussions. So when I talk about apple pie and timescapes it is because I need to go to a theoretical place to get away from all of the feelings. Ultimately, the purpose of this post is just to thank everyone for your patience with my reactions, as you have all been very kind.